Thursday, September 22, 2011

Not so touchy-feely....

I'm taking a teaching class this semester.  I figure it's an insurance policy.  Teaching isn't my favorite thing in the world.  I'm not "passionate" about teaching.  Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it, but it's not my "passion".  Engineering and problem solving is my "passion".  Bone research is my "passion", not teaching.  I am a realist though, and I know that if I'm going to be a researcher affiliated with any University, I'll have to teach.  I hate to put it this way, but if I'm going to be a Professor, I'm going to have to teach.....duh.  Bottom line, I know what's coming so I'm taking a class to get the training, or at least to say that I have some sort of training.  I just hope it's an asset when it comes time to use it.  

Thing is though, even if the class is 1/2 Engineering grad students, the other half is artsy and touchy-feely.  I'm not a fan of touchy-feely.  It might not be the breakdown of what the students are studying that gets to me though.  I think it's the whole "no experience in the Real World" storyline coming up again.  Mostly because the touchy-feely students seem to be looking for hard and fast answers for questions that you really can't give hard and fast answers to.  They're the kind of questions that only you can answer for yourself and you have to deal with what you're given.  Real World kind of shit. 
They ranged from:
"How do you balance research, classes, teaching and real life?" 
"How do I know that right now is the right time for me to take this class?" 
"What do I do if my students don't like me?"
"How do I get to know my students?"
"How do I deal with trouble students?"

All valid questions, but honestly you can solve them yourself with a little bit of creative and independent thought.  This kind of questions really bothers me, mostly because you're looking to me for an answer, and I honestly can't give it to you.  You have to figure that one out by yourself.  I think they were looking for hard and fast answers, but as far as I'm concerned, when it comes to touchy-feely stuff like this, there are NO hard and fast answers.  You have to do what you can with what you have in the situation.  Real World and Life Experience kind of stuff.  Maybe I'm just wiser beyond my years - it doesn't explain the stupid shit that I've done though......

I'm not very "zen".  I'm kind of a basket-case to be honest.  When it comes to crap like this though, I'm very zen, and realize that there is no "answer".  I also understand that unless you're ready to accept the answer, you won't find it.  Kind of like a Yoda/Jedi kind of thing.  "The teacher will come when you are ready", "Use the Force".....that kind of shit.  I dunno, I'm pretty sure I get it.  I think that I may get quite frustrated with having to sit through "OK, let's talk about our feelings" for 3 hours every week. 

I have a pretty good idea of who I am, what I value, where I set my priorities, how I want to be perceived and what my expectations are.  I don't always meet expectations and am not always perceived how I want to be, but when I fuck up, I have a decent understanding how and why. 

The only thing I still don't have a grasp on is why I'm still single.......

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