Rockstar: Dena +1

Yes, I do have other posts on the back-burner...some that require a little bit of research to support my "opinions", but it's Friday afternoon and I just came from a pretty exciting meeting with my Thesis Supervisors...and I really don't want to write anything more that requires research--and I need to get this out before I explode. 

I'm actually starting to believe that I'm "awesome". 

I've never really believed it, even though my friends keeps telling me I'm "awesome", and people keep me in their networks because I'm "awesome", but I've never really believed it.  I know I'm a "good person", but never to the extreme of "awesome".  After today's meeting, I'm starting to believe, just a little bit, that I'm pretty awesome. 

I have two really amazing (I was going to type 'awesome' but quickly hit the delete button--gotta switch it up for writing's sake) supervisors.  Like, really amazing. 
They work really well together (which is essential when you have to manage two 'bosses', when in most cases one is more than enough), they value me as a team member (given my experience in the 'real world', THIS IS HUGE), they push me to think a little deeper (which usually ends up with me working in circles--but that helps me reaffirm what I know, in a twisted-OCD-kind-of-way), and they're not afraid to let me fail or stumble around frustrated in the dark for a little bit (which is sadly how I learn my best lessons).

I'm wondering what I did in previous lives to end up in such a wonderful position.
How did I end up working with such great (and incredibly smart) people?
How did I end up researching something I love so much?  (I don't care what anyone says, bone is fucking FASCINATING!!)
How did I end up working with the Vet College in a side project?
How did I end up being scouted to start up a lab even before I finished my PhD?
How the fuck did I get into a PhD program!!??

I went into today's meeting with a cluster-fuck of ideas.  Kind of like I took all the "brilliance" in my brain, smashed it into a schedule, and wished that it would work.

I came out of today's meeting, still with the "brilliant" ideas, but now they're starting to fit into a plan...a plan that makes sense and I should realistically be able to finish in 3 years.  HUGE! 

If I can pull this all off, it might just affirm that I actually am awesome.